not that strong.

2009-08-24T22:30:00.001+08:00

I OFFICIALLY MOVED ON TO TUMBLR AFTER 3 YEARS OF BLOGGING (:

visit and relink : www.cookiesandfrappe.tumblr.com
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
migraine sucks great times yo!
pain till cannot tahan den my father come kb me somemore ><
fuck.
pain persisted till today but not that bad x)

anyway, i was f-ing angry in my dreams i dunno why
so i swung my hand and it hit the rails den my skin came out
darn pain when i wash up in the morning

so, lessons were ohkays.
very tiring day.
tay tried to kb me oso but i've no mistake leh xP
in the end he make a mistake himself LALALALALALA.

though lim was coming but aiya, he mia today ):
MISSED HIM TOTALLY.

skipped lunch and went trg abit later.
coach ceemed happy but i tink he's happy cuz he torturing us.
endless layups for 30min without breaks. FUCK.

darn the migraine.

dinnered at sumo with cookie(!) and jellybean!
LOL. lame topics and jokes xPP

jellybean you better take care of ur back and throat and whatever that's hurting!
or you'll see chrysanthemum tea from meee! >:(

shhitttttttt
extra lessons tmr.

should sleep early yeah?
or cookie(!) scold
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

i'm happy nowwwww {:
cuz everything seems to be so great
love's treating me better, exams all over and i've got something to play with(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

ALL TESTS IS OVER!(:

so so so tired naooooo!
shall go have fun with plurkkkkk(:

and i wan cookie(!)'s purple specs):
i hate her for buying it cuz i want it HAHAHA.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

so addicted to plurk nowwww(:
heheh.

chem was actually ohkays!

lessons were so-so.

had frappe with qitot at macs today!(:
studied trigo, and woah, tiring.

didn't sleep for >15hours already x.x
cuz woke at 4 to study!

shall go play with plurk to earn karma!
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

omfg, chem test tmr
and it includes mole!

lessons were a bore
alot of hmwk given
super heavy bag.

i tink it's easier for me to mention the happy things that happened today cuz there's so little
-jasmine gave me some stuffs(:
-i dabao beehoon to eat!
-grammar test was easy!
-had some lame jokes with qitot!

"OH MY GOD, MY WHIPPED CREAM IS MELTING!"
(inserts cries and sad face)

need to find a place to cry over coffee hor qitot?

maths coming on fri
need to buck up
MR LIM WHERE YOU?! ):

i need choc.

eh, no.
can't, need to save my voice already.
argh.

if one day i'm absent, i think only qitot, carey, courteney, vic and some other girls will care?
weird.

is frappe another substitute for chocolate?
if it's like how she can substitute me so easily,
i guess it's a yes.

that replaceable?
that disposable?
相信这个他不一样,却又再一次受伤.
相信付出会有代价,代价只是一句傻瓜.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-18T20:09:00.000+08:00

was coughing lik hell today
especially chinese, when the class was freaking quiet :X
SORRY!

qitot came back!! (inserts uber big smile)
(:

sat with cookie(!) at canteen
talked random, sang and wrote lyrics

LYRICS-MACHINE.

walked to hub and homed(:

pretty cool day.

i wanna dabao food to sch tmr ^^
vic's helping other peeps buy food too
but i shall buy my own, reduce her burden yeah?(:

realised alot alot of stuffs today.
like, how much i hated you.
and that love can seriously turn into hatred.

I JUST HATE HATE HATE TO SEE______________________.
utterly.

it's so hard to pretend that you're strong when you're actually falling into pieces inside.
i really wonder, if i really did do it that well.

(coughs)
grammar test tmr!
epic fail.
-YANTING(:

2009-08-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

my eyes hurt x.x

hmm, geog test sure flunk.

trg was ohkays.
cough was totally making me feel lazy

i miss qitot! ):
WHERE YOUUUUUUUU?

and nuer! get well soon kays?(:
we still got frappe to go, both of you!

got some copying of lyrics to do for cookie (;
ciao~
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

heheh, for one thing
i got a purple shirttttt(:

geog test tmr and i forgot bring my textbook back :O
GREAT.

hmmmmmmmmm
lee hsien loong's rally till 10 = no dgray ):

silent hill ytd night was cool x)
didn't get the story much
but the thrill still there(:

sian, i need a walk.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

morning was GREAAAAAAT(:

met with nuer for subway breakfast!
abit disappointed
but nevertheless, had fun talking to her!

went for frappe!! <3
tried mocha frappe while she had double choc

chatted outside gachagacha
met shuwen,joywe, kunyan and clique!

bused to nuer's house to see kitty!!!!!!!!!!! (inserts ultra happy face)
heheh xDD
darn cuteeeee.

but abit lifeless leh, keep sleeping -.=

homed.

no work done today
nope, not even revising.

silent hill and inuyasha tonight
both at 10pm.
what to do? ):

i need to fight for my own happiness.
after giving love away twice.
same love, same person, same reason.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

wow, still screwed.
everyday i hope to see blogger to have recovered.

day was cool.
maths test was expected.
couldn't finish x.x

failed ss, passed chem, den passed chinese with good grades.

had lunch at nebo with cookie(!), monster and retarded princess!
met edna too!
fish and wedges were great and fulling.
darn fulling.

walked around and cookie bought her bermudas!

heyhey, and shit you.
the purple shirt looks so nice on you!
ROARS.

and, stop emoing or i'll poke ur dimples!

oh, i almost lost my voice in e morning!
lucky never turn into another carine xPPP

double choc frappe needs to wait.
i need my voice right now.

breakfast tmr with nuer! (:

epic moodswings ):

it just happen that the person i can trust the most is the person i love.
and the person i love is the source of all my troubles.
so how can i pour my troubles to the person i love?
yes no?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
the rest shall go into my diary.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

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-YaNtiNg

2009-08-13T20:39:00.001+08:00

and now blogger's totally screwed.
i see little red x everywhere x.x

knew that i passed chem (:
physics was ohkays, but scoring well..uh.

got this uber thick stack of grammar assignments to do x.x
darn thick. more den 47 pages.
try doing it in 2 days?

Emaths tmr, geog next week.

darn.

today's supposed to be a happy day!!!! (:
heheh, things have been going well till now.
tried my very best not to think bout some stuffs.

tmr shall be another great day(:

go revise maths.
now.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

great, the blogger panel is back but it doesn't work.

passed my expo (!!)
totally, OMFG.
summary too!

maths test was, WTF.

hist was ohkays(:
but yeah, got confusion over e answers.

training after school wasn't THAT bad.
(:
i tink its cuz coach didn't turn up.
and very little ppl.

trained with e guys and WTF.
match with them is uber failure pls.
scraped my knee for f-ing's sake
and damn, hated myself for not scoring wtf wtf wtf.
goddamn it >:(

SORRY TEAM ):

i want macs double choc frappe! (:
it's darn nice!

physics test tmr.

and did i mention i sprain my ankle on the bus?
oh yes, i did.

no wonder cookie say i bendan xDD
ROARS.

ohkays, aryan is being irritating by asking me to go study for physics x.x

i need my frappppppeeeeeeeee,
NOW.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-11T21:46:00.001+08:00

there's maths and hist test tmr and i'm reading prince of tennis
what is this??
tsk.

anyway, brought cookies to school today!(:
heheh, thanks god ppl thinks its good
(although abit hard luh)

lessons were great.

walked 5 rounds around the field for PE
with jingwen screaming like some mad woman -.=

kena scolded for maths
but with aqilah around even a scolding becomes funny xP

"i want your hmwk by FLAG ASSEMBLY!"

she scold until wanna fight liddat sia xD
somemore her graph is EPIC FAIL.

aqilah,"OMG i pity her art teacher!" (inserts ultra kelian face)

did titration with miss mok and omg, she darn scary ):
but it was fun(:

found cookie(!) den rah came along
funny convo that we had xP

omg, hist and maths tmr.
and training -.=

so darn tired.

and i love that look on your face when you're serious(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

kbox was great with cookie(!), jellybean and monster.
met yijin, herhuey and edna too!

singing with cookie(!) is totally loved(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

jus wanna say
really, really
dang ni kan jian wo ku ran hou guan xing wo shi
wo zhen de, zhen de hen xing fu
jing guan zhi you yi fen zhong.
wo bu hui zai ni mian qian liu lei
ying wei zhi you wo hong ni kai xin, mei you ni hong wo kai xin(:
jin guan wo hen hou hui ba ni rang gei le bie ren
wo hai shi hui shou zhe ni
ying wei wo zhi dao wo zhi nen mo mo de pei zhe ni
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

woah
slept for 11 hours x.x
missed my show yesterday night! ):

but still, national day carnival was kinda fun(:
made our food
float is still the most popular luh
ended up losing money and poor mdm neo have to absorb the losses ($17++)
i feel darn bad ):

went to the 1/4 haunted house with cookie, santhini, zhi yi and another 2 gals
HAHAHA, the ppl funny seh.
we ended up pulling each other's shoe lace
CHARMAINE AND JELLYBEAN FAILED TO SCARED US xP
heheh, and charmaine lend me her flowers
LOL.

went to watch UP at hub with team(:
freaking funny show(:
kinda touching at times.

had my subway!
slacked at the bus interchange for 2 hours
and cookie look lik some ahbeng sitting on the railings xP

thanks jingwen for calling and asking if i'm ohkays(:
LOVE YOU!

sarah lim veh scared of cold HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
and she wanna sing wu ding with yoke man! (WINKWINK)

my double choc cookie was submerged in ice lemon tea ):
so much for leaving the best for the last

went to nebo with kunyan, shuwen and joywe! (:
played some retarded indian poker lookalike game
which requires us to wear headband with a card on our head

"I AM A MILK!" (stares at shuwen)

homed at 9++
darn tired.

now my calf's hurting lik shit.

YAY, looking forward to monday(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
so pissed off.
i'm so in the torturous mood that i broke my pen delibrately and used my scissors to cut it
>:(

so what now?
i'm the bad guy that everybody hates and shun?
so much for trying to help in everything that i can
ppl love snatching my friends.
WHAT, ownself no frens meh
fcb go find ur own luh.
seriously can't stand ur attitude.
ppl say dun wannna see you liao still si chan lan da
come on luh grow up luh
ppl not like you okay
f-ing disgusting luh.

i'm so fucked up.

anyway,
thanks jaini and nicholas for helping with buying stuffs
and the rest for decorating the stall!

(INSERTS DARN LOTS OF VULGARITIES.)
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

i'm so so so so tired today.
restless and sick of everything.

i need a break.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

i cooked fried rice and brought it to school for recess today!!
xDDD

HAPPY(:

PE was totally slack after napfa! WOOTS.

totally, TOTALLY, kb-ed dorothy.L
x)
HUAT ARHS.
she damn damn damn ass.

"... ALL BY MEANS."
come on luh. go for english tuition luh.

chem test was fine
but totally screwed last page pls.
darn. cu2co3 is green.
and my last questions darn pekcek,
i totally knew e answer but no time! ><

got released early for physics! (:

found cookie and walked around hub
and she can jus see a shirt, like it, try it, den buy it.
-.=

heheheh, tmr got ss and english.
eng is sure flunk.
ss, me gotto revise soon.

and trg, omg.
having epic muscle aches already x.x

when i tired to be friendly, you looked away.
what do you expect me to do?
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

damn damn damn.
tmr got chem testttt ):
i wanna score well for chem but i always cmi

anyway, neo wasn't here so we had 2 free periods(:
teehee x)
but den the ms lim stare stare stare until her eyes wan pop out liddat

somemore, she's gonna take us for maths for 3 weeks OMFG.
i counted down in my handbook
i confirm celebrate when she leaves xDD

training was ohkays
20 rounds were pretty tiring and stomach-irrtating
ran my slow slow suicide and did physical ):

sang birthday song for coach!!
heheh, he old liao x)

went gym and it's cool.
so long never go liao x)

homed with cookie and weilin (:

ohkays, time to go revise chem
but i'm super tired my eyes are drying up and dropping out D:

i need to get large amounts of endorphins released daily
so i need chocolates, cookie, monster, carey, qitot, jingwen and courteney!
also i need to eat some fried beehoon soon, i'm craving for it x)

oh yes, i wanna make chocolate cookie!
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-02T20:37:00.000+08:00

my blogger's still screwed -.=

but can post den can liao (:

after so many stuffs had happened
i totally realise that i must learn to zhi zhu

well, today was pretty much on sleep and work.
the only thing i looked forward to is dgray just now (:

woohoo, kanda so hot~
(gladwin stares and murmurs huachihuachi...)

so, chinese test tmr!
and following that i have another 5 tests for e whole week
(aiya, maths test is next next week! still can relax)
xDD

heheh, i'm so looking forward to friday cuz got e carnival though i haven receive the freaking email they said i'm supposed to receive >:(
and saturday! got dimsum with family(:
AND MONDAY THE HOLIDAY! woohoo, monday monday! ^^

i'm jealous luh cookie!
you keep buying shoes seh.
ming pai one somemore ><

and i really really don't wanna hate you.
i really really can't.
but everything you've done just hurts too much.
you didn't do what you're supposed to do, yet did everything you shouldn't have done
how am i supposed to make myself believe any longer that you are not that kind of person?

our past, like forgotten childhood memories.
-YaNtiNg

2009-08-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

LOLLLLLLLLLLLL.
a reminder from facebook that 14 ppl invited me to join -.=

ytd was a bad bad bad BAD day cuz i literally broke down thrice after school after seeing different ppl
so bad that i feared talking bout that again.
yes, that .

except that i passed my maths tests though i didn't attempt lik 1/2 of the questions ^^

today wasn't that bad.

trimmed my hair cuz it was getting very thick
and now i look lik a primary school girl.
cheers!

went over to my aunt's house for my uncle's birthday celebration!
woohoo~
had a lot of good food but nothing beats ramly burger luh

my primary 2 cousin screamed hello into my phone to cookie,
tinking that she can hear it -.=
cute pls ><

and i tied a knot with the cherry stem using my tongue! ^^
i'm very proud of that HAHAHAHA xD

my sis got a 5 day mc cuz she got fever
urgh, i wan it to! ><
den dun nid go school, dun nid face all kind of stuffs, dun nid to feel those sickening feelings

recently life's been fucked up pretty much.
but yeah, seri said that at least i knew who's there now.
though i still don't believe you were this kind of person.
yes i don't. i even sweared to ppl that you weren't this kind of ppl.

yup, thank you truckloads to seri, jingwen, courteney, cookie and monster(:
ppl who asked and cared and talked to me when i broke down.
or should i say i broke down when i saw them? o.o

aiya, nvm. at least i know they will be there.

lemongrass and pandan! ^^
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-30T20:54:00.000+08:00

today was happy, sad, happy, sad, happy, sad.
so now i'm still at the sad part ):

chem was so funny
got back my environment paper
leow keep writing "YES!", "YEAH!" beside my answers -.=

"high quality work, keep it up!" LOL.
sure hope that applies to my test!

geog was very enriching for e mind and i feel so productive
got a whole page of diagrams and notes on rivers ^^

went to pasar malam with courteney for lunch!
HEHEHE.
SO HAPPY OMGBBQCHICKENWING! xDDD

ramly was godly
taiwan sausage was yumyum
fish crackers was addictive
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY(:

thanks courteney for pei-ing me(:

stayed in class and slacked
zhengyoung and damian managed to sleep on 4 chairs each O.O
zhengyoung keeps rearranging his chairs
darn comical, reminds me of cockroach finding place to sleep x)

thanks alvin for e sour plum!

went to find cookie and monster
heheh xD
they napfa so cool.
the teachers veh slack -.=

talked to mdm hee and mr ng

ms ho nagged cuz she saw the words on my hand ><

played ball with cookie, monster, charmaine, huimei and their frens
SUPER FUNNY.
horny game please!

devin with his dog face and vibrating moves -.=
LOL xD

justin got groped by devin O.O
no more fathers' day xDDD

played abit of netball

I LIKE E WIND IN SCHOOL TODAY! (:
very refreshing x)

and i hope my worries can be carried away too..

haiz.
homed with cookie and teased moey xP
heheh!

i'm so sick of school now
epic moodswings please.
argh!

WHATSWRONGWITHLIFEWHATSWRONGWITHYOUWHATSWRONGWITHMEWHATSWRONGWITHUSANDEVERYONE???

i don't wanna be the last one to know when i'm the first one to care.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

THE DOOMSDAY'S OVERRRRRRRR!
huat arh
this certainly calls for a celebration! (:
hehe

anyway, i passed all my 5 items(:
either i quite veh good, or i do veh bad.

lessons were darn boring ><
super tired nowadays, my eyes darn easily dry!

had icecream for recess with sarahng and victoria!
hehe.
jingwen had 2 icecream! (screams fatfatfat)
xDD

lunched with monster and cookie! xDDDDDDDDDDD
HAHAHA.
kahyan's nickname is cookie cause she ate my subway cookie x)

i got 2 juniors called cookie and monster from 1/5!
HAHAHA, darn cute xP

cookie and monster saw me doing pull up -.=
i did 10 den lazy do liao, same for sit up (but thats 31)

played vball with jingwen, gladwin, calvin, rebecca, sarah ng and bryan i tink
omg, totally pwned.

saw the 2/1'08 boys playing bball! :D
never ever saw them playing tgt sia.
heh.
played ball with cookie and monster too!

SORRY ARH MONSTER, play play with you only! x)

amelia came along when me and cookie resting.
hehe, i became amelia's tutor too xDD

went pasar malam to dabao food for carey and qitot!
saw shuwen,joywe and their clique(:

YAY.
i'm still veh happy that napfa's overrr(:

and i'm so excited bout ________ xDD

LALALA.
i need to find something interesting to do.

and my mum owes me an apology.
i'm darn angry. ROARS.
she veh wu li qu nao!
ARGHHHHHH.

i need berms, and new specs!
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

why isn't blogger recovering yet? :/

PE wasn't good.
had a fall and ALMOST did a split due to the slippery mud in the field >:(
bloody pain pls!
and my new shoes and pe pants got mud ):

it's su's last lesson!
he's nice luh. abit naggy only xP

had lunch with courteney and jingwen after school!
WE GOT A DATEEEEE! woohoo~~

revised for SPA and there we go!

darn the test pls.
DAO DI YOU MEI YOU AMMONIA GAS??? >:(

anyway, went to pasar malam with carey and damian! :DDDD
hehe
COCONUT JUICE IS NICE!
(damian freaked out when me and carey ate the coconut flesh!)

carey rich seh,
buy wristband, taiwan sausage, fried fishsticks thats lik rock!

and she wanna get a personalized necklace($15) tmr!

i want, RAMILY BURGER! :D
damian i noe u want it too!

something super paiseh happen ><
but me not gonna say anything.
why is it always damian and carey that see my embarrassing moment! ><
ROARS.

sent carey home!
45 take fagging long to come.

napfa tmr! x.x
must jiayou liaos!

i'm tired.
of everything.

sick of feeling feelings.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

carey says,
Do you know why they say ignorance is bliss ? Because sometimes the truth hurts so bad, so bad . A cut so deep it can't be stitched closed . Bleed. Let yourself run dry because so what ? It never meant anything . Nothing .

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels.

what can i do but to agree?

that slash you gave me isn't healing.
and everytime i see you, it tears open and start bleeding again.
it has become a daily basis

yet i can't do anything.
just sit there and bear the pain and suffer like nobody's business.

i feel like a fool.
suffering for nothing.
suffering when you don't even give a damn anymore.

what's the point of it?
but i just can't fucking stitch that wound up once and for all!
make it stop, let it heal.

and i'm the one that discovered the truth.
so stop lying through ur teeth.

my knee hurts.
terribly.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-27T20:29:00.001+08:00

MATHS TEST - epic failure
bloody graphs!

anyway, ande was cool x)
the man who said 250+ "ok" within 30min O.O

HAHAHA xD
carey actually counted and vic say stuffs till damn loud xD

HAD SUBWAY!!
woots x)
with kahyan, jellybean, huimei and trisha!

MONSTER WHERE YOU?? ):

actually we went to sumo.
den suddenly decided that we wanna go hub for one reason or another (WINK WINK TO KAHYAN)
hehe xDD

so we zao out of sumo
so paiseh, go in liao never order den zao somemore :X

STALKERSSSS.
huimei and jb darn funny xP

huimei: "long meh? how long?"
xDD

and she's seriously blind.

bought stuffs and walked around hub till 5+
saw eileen and chuanzhen!
OMFGS, chuanzhen is darn darn cute please!! ><

my didi grow up liao wors.

sent ky home den jb met her frens so i homed!

while on bus there's this ______ woman
her boobs keep rubbing against my hand! ><
damn fuck luh.
but thats the only pole i can hold sia. darn.

(pours hydrochloric acid over hand)

chem SPA tmr ><
JIAYOU PPL! must score well!

and to my dear juniors,
good luck for ya maths test! xP

If I had just one more day,
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
since you've went away.

and i still haven watch harry potter.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-26T17:23:00.001+08:00

i should be relieved, shouldn't i?
it's releasing me from more stress.

but why is it that instead of feeling lighter,
my chest feels heavier,
my mind more cluttered,
and me, more confused than ever?

why is it that you cared and yet your friends picked on me?
why is it that you said you've tried but i've never seen those efforts?
why is it that i've tried trying to patch back and yet you ignored me?
i don't understand.
isn't it just the acts of a hypocrite?
were you a hypocrite right from the start?

i hope you're not.
i think you're not.
i know you're not.
no wonder you can hurt me so deeply, you're my loved one.
you're the nearest in the hurting distance.
i wonder why i allowed you to come so close in.

would you tell me i was wrong,
and help me understand?
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

The people you love are within hurting distance, close range.

i hope someone can actually prove to me that everlasting friendship exists.
monster says,:"...never fight..."

an everlasting friendship without any arguments, does that exists?

please prove to me that it do exists,
so i can make myself believe that you are not the one.
and that our quarrel is something i should've expected, something that'll come sooner or later.
it's just my fault for placing too much confidence on our very strong friendship, as said by huixiang.

i thought,
if others think that our friendship can withstand any problems
why should i worry about it so much?

apparently, i was wrong.
outsiders can never see our problems,
the problems of our friendship.

and to me,
they can never help solve it.
so i don't understand why others who are not related see the need of being angry.

you're getting over it, it seems.
or rather, you've gotten over it.
i'm glad.
that's one person less for a group of people named friends to save.
this shows that i'm the only one left, confused and lost.
and it's high time that i depend on myself to get out of it.
to try and survive.

just me against the world.

and i'm sorry, kahyan.
sorry for flaring up.
you just reminded me that those happy memories is all in the past.
that it was once my happiest memories.
and it just hurt too much for me to remember.

those who was never close
but will always be there,
i thanks you.
people like qitot, seri, courteney, carey, huixiang, kahyan, monster, jingwen.
of course, you.
for being there for such a long long time. always.
though you might never be again.

love for my loved, misses for my missed,
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-24T21:30:00.002+08:00

2.4 IS OFFICIALLY OVERRRRR!
huat arh! xDDD

was pacing courteney all the way until the last 2 rounds x)

and, victoria ran O.O
WOW. (ohkay i'm gonna get killed for this) xD

anyway, thanks for all the goodluck(s) and sweaty hugs! (:

day was normal
just unusually more sleepy and pissedoff den usual.

thanks calvin for dabao-ing lunch for me! (:

absolute boyfriend last episode today! ):
gonna watch it no matter wad. HAHAHA.

Some days i feel broke inside, but i wouldn't admit
Sometimes i just wanna hide, cuz it's you i miss.

Sometimes i wanna call you
But i know you won't be there.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

YESSA. done with buzzle(:

PE was cool!
frisbeee~
my new shoe got stained by all the mud ):

had summary test during english.
wth, dun even knew bout it beforehand >:(

done the survey for NIE
dumb, all bout politics!

"AGARRRR AGARRRR!!!"
xD

lunched with jingwen, courteney, guanyu, zhengyoung and marcus
GUANYU'S DUMB x)
hehe.

stayed back with qitot!
talked to the PATIENT for 1 hour 19 min 59 sec xDDD
and thanks qitot, for listening to me x)
hahah, AEROPLANEEEEE xDDD

victoria too, the first person that asked me to stand up(:

homed with qitot! hehe.

tmr got 2.4km ><
omg.
faint.

must jiayou(:

I would hold you in my arms,
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-22T21:02:00.002+08:00

shit sia.
whats wrong with blogger!!! O.O
sian.

anyway, ytd rocks to hellmax (:
went peninsula and bugis with jasmine and kahyan!

i finally bought my shirt!! for $15 bucks.

jasmine got her picks, and kahyan got her "FAKE IS EASY" shirt.
( i chose it! )

and for the whole day i've been acting lik kahyan's MOTHER -.=
keep calling me mother, den i have to help her keep wallet and ask for smaller size for clothes -.=

anyway, 3 of ur got a specs brooch!(:
pretty to the max!

next aim will be berms(:

anyway, arcaded and jasmine homed.
jalan jalan around hub with kahyan while waiting for her mum
and i got a bracelet!
PRETTY(:
hehe, it's currently on my phone acting as an accessory x)

had listening compre today.
had stomachache in between -.=

who the hell get stomachaches at such a crucial time! ><

anyway, i failed my chem SPA. sian.

trg was cool, managed to train a little on my own.
and my bloody shoe was 'biting' my feet -.-

others, will all go into my notebook.
not gonna spend time and disclose everything here for kpos to see.

and YOU.
you know who you are.
GET WELL SOON.
you'd better recover kays.
since you're quarrantined at home! ><
(don't worry, i'll still harass you during my recess!)

when the anger pass, all that's left is pure sadness.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-19T17:08:00.004+08:00

well, yesterday's fun on foot was great(:
lucky jingwen wasn't late for registration~

haha, i guess it's the first time i've travelled so much in a day
darn tired, after all the running
my feet gonna drop off when i reached home x.x

and thanks jingwen, abdul and omar!
also, larry and mr fadz(:

went to jalan jalan with jingwen, chee ian, marcus and calvin
ended up in the toys'rus (?)
P.S. there's still alot but i deleted cuz it's so darn funny x)

den as calvin was trying out shorts i found this shirt!!
pretty not? (:
hehe.
but ex, $42.90 :/

anyway, these were taken on fri

i dunno why but everytime me and carey take photo

there'll be more of damian's O.O

ALLEN WALKER!

and, my airplanttttt(:

it's pretty and still growing!

GROW GROW GROW(:

ohkays, amath test tmr ):

need to revise.

and hadirah, please please recover :/

seriously need u to come to school tmr

(i need ur costume!)

GET WELL SOON! (:

peninsula, seoul garden or outing with vivian?

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-17T21:20:00.003+08:00

let's continue to be like this.
-YaNtiNg
loving you secretly is already enough
i've got nothing to ask for but for you to stay with me
don't be sad, please cheer up
because even when the whole world had given up on you i'll still be here

2009-07-17T21:01:00.004+08:00

today, was great in a sense
and sucky in another sense.

anyway, lessons were cool(:

had lunch with monster pat and her fren fei li i tink(:
bloody ass.
monster saw her lmh at the drinks stall and ask me help her buy drink -.=

MONSTER SHY SHY SIAAAA xDDDD

went to hub for haunting with monster and kahyan!

woah, the cinema is so f-ing crowded.
all for harry potter.

but, ron looks better den him now :/

bought tickets.
saw jellybean and her frens, hongliang and his frens, nicholas(!) and jonavan and their frens(:
P.S. i get veh happy when i see nicholas. ALWAYS.

went to buy food from ntuc x)

SUSHI! <3 sidetrack: monster once wrote a ying yong wen on problems in a cinema like bringing outside food, talking loudly etc. den say ask the worker throw the food away if he found any. AND, she bought sushi and drinks into the cinema. OH THE IRONY xP

so, while kahyan was happily enjoying her sushi
monster was nagging - she needs to pee
and she needs 15mins to pee O.O

anyway, finally got into the cinema(:
i was afraid that monster will hit/bite me D:

and the 2 brats were happily koping the chips that i bought >:(

the show was great
not THAT scary. though i freaked out a few times x.x

HAHA, thanks for being the spoiler man, chongkahyan.

jalan jalan around hub x)
BUGISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS xDDD
got a date with kahyan to bugis to get clothes for beyourselfday!(:

sent the 2 brats home and homed myself(:

teehee, absolute boyfriend tonight! :D

i seriously need to save up
the savings from past 2 weeks have been used for tenyearseries :O

fun-on-foot tmr!
excited, but worried.
JIAYOU JIAYOU(:

today, is really a great day.
not because of what i went through,
it's because of who went through it with me(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-16T21:30:00.003+08:00

and again, my socks got muddy water cuz of the large hole

which became even larger after playing ball on wed-.=

anyway, playing captain's ball with a soccer ball is quite cool

victoria screams: "BURN CALORIES!!"

LOL xD

geog was the funniest

mdm neo was so pissed off/amused by damian

and said,
"WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH A STUDENT LIKE YOU?"

and she laugh till cry.

wah, classic x)

after school had lunch with jingwen courteney and yiting :D

JINGWEN DARN DESPO!!! xPPP

went back to school to prepare for the BTNR trip x)

sat with SHIUANNNNN WENNNNN :D

cheer up ohkays?(:

anyway, i spotted a caterpillar, dead spider and a squirrel

also saw a monitor lizard when we were heading for the bus xDD

and it's darn tiring luh,
all the steep steep steps ):

I GOT MY AIR PLANTTTT(:

gonna plant it soon x)

P.S. shiuanwen named hers -.= so cute HAHAHA xDD

chatted on the phone on the way home x)

omg, i'm so tired, restless and easily irritated now >:(

at least, HAUNTING tmr will make me a little for excited i guess (:

when you come, even the stars light up to welcome you(:

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 700th POST!!!

and for that, a nice picture of allen walker with his innocence, crown clown xD

ohkays, i totally wet my socks in the morning cuz of the big hole in my shoe's sole x.x

history was nice
mr ng told us things that he shouldn't be saying.
xDD

lessons ended nicely with ss
mr eu showed us a dumb video about some plasticine ppl that drowns in a cup of water-.=

AND YES, THE BEST PART :D
vivian came back and i'm the first person she met xDDDD

missed her(:
loads.

walked around and talked(:
den sent them all home tgt.

did work, den bballed with shuwen and monster pat!
HAD FUN xDD
darn funny.

talked a lot a lot with monster x)

bukit timah tmr!
woots!

forgive me that i can't bring myself to say it to you,
because we know that i'm not that strong ,seeing that you no longer need me.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

i miss last year
when everyone was together.
now, all screwed.

school was dead boring
or was it just me?
i only know i almost died during sciences cuz carey MIA again >:(

GET WELL SOON(:

had lunch with the gals in the noon
den went to find monster pat and kahyan

revised SPA
and those 2 brats came up to find me(:
sat outside at the corridor and chatted

and kahyan refused to let me go toilet
because ________________________ xDDDD

so they went to play bball
and i went for SPA :O

the teacher veh scary :/
she veh loud den keep standing at my table
somemore call me repeat step one
say " i need to reassess you" -.-

when i came out,
THOSE 2 BRATS WENT HOME WITHOUT ME.

OFFICIAL ANNOUNCEMENT
VIVIAN YU QIRAN,
HAS LANDED IN SINGAPORE.
AND IS VISITING ANDERSON AT 2PM TMR!

missed her sooooooooo much(:
and looking forward to seeing her!! ^^

And I will swallow my pride if you stayed for the years,
and watch me spin circles as I disappear.

stay, yes no?
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-13T21:06:00.002+08:00

my sun, moon and star.

my SMS(:

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

omg, tmr got chem spa D:
darn scared, somemore leow's not here!

anyway, physics was cool x)
did the acceleration experiment
i lik playing with the data logger!

though i ended up doing almost everything,
i got hugs from jaini and carey

weird ppl, they are.
they tugged at my belt and called "mama!"
and hugged me O.O

LOL.

had lunch with sec ones after school
jasmine lost her phone :O
bloody ppl who steal phones >:(

was feeling weirdly 'out'
since i'm the only sec 3 and there's 8 sec ones

yijin veh funny!
and we started playing the slap table game -.=

played ball with kahyan, shuwen and rah after that!

kahyan is retarded.
she tried throwing balls at my leg-.=

den both of us become darn paranoid xDDD

marked my LDQ and drew INUYASHA!!!

chatted alot with her and homed(:
thanks, cheer up and jiayous!

"I'll be okay,
is that what you want me to say?"
but sorry, i'm not.
without you, never will i be okay.

life continues to get fucked up as we move on,
and as we look back everything will be twisted.
what an ugly sight.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

end up there was 10 drafts in my account -.=

it's a sucky sunday.
woke up at 9+ when i could sleep so much later >:(

went out to mtuc with my mum in the noon
but hell, there was like darn lots of ppl!

sundays are definitely not a good day to go supermarkets.

got fucked up at ppl who refused to move when there's a queue waiting to walk behind them
and ppl who "parked" their trolleys anyhow
and families strolling in a horizontal line in the ntuc, thinking that it's FAMILY DAY.
for goddamn sake, go stroll at a park luh.

had mos for lunch
ordered natsumi teriyaki and turned out that there'sno bread/rice
only plenty of lettuce and a piece of chicken O.O

i didn't know that.
LOL.

did my work
PHYSICS IS OFFICIALLY ON MY BLACKLIST.

kinda feeling aimless now.
i don't even know what to do after school.
going home early is not even an option now.
stay back? with who?
who's gonna stay back with me?
who's gonna have lunch with me?

when you have to stop doing what you're used to doing all of a sudden,
you'll be at a lost of what to do.

habits, are trouble.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-11T15:56:00.002+08:00

i seriously got cute juniors xD

MONSTER PAT. roars!

hehe xDD
i'm rotting at home D:

need to find something to do.

And if you love me so,
I'm gonna tell the whole world
That it's the greatest thing that happened to me
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-10T21:30:00.010+08:00

today was kinda great(:
thanks<3

QITOT IS BACKKKKKK IN ACTIONNNNNNNNN!
and carey MIA sia):

get well soon carey! and welcome back qitottttt(:

so day started with maths maths maths maths!!!!
mr lim teach veh veh well(:

den is the 2 sciences!
i don't like physics >:(
super confusing sia.

chem was free period.
mr transformer MIA toooo!
sent songs from calvin's phone (THANKS!)
den spent the hour chatting with him, gladwin and darrick x)

did compo during chinese
suddenly my mind blank out O.O
can't rmb how to write some simple words x.x

still, i managed to complete it and passed it up(:

had lunch with huimei rah and kahyan!
omelette!!!!!!!!!!! xDDD

it's like the second time i had a proper lunch in school since school started x)

played ball at ISH xP
got veh high cuz i shot in a couple of balls from near the half court xDD

huimei started taking videos of kahyan shooting
and they started laughing at what huimei said during the video-.=

and i siammed huimei's ball so many times
i suspect she's trying to aim at me >x(

sang OUR OLD SONGS with kahyan den coped songs!
hehe xD

so more and more ppl came and we stopped playing
had fun watching the guys (bball boys and teachers) play match
and patricia starting laughing at justin -.=

and that 2 brats somehow almost nearly tore my yearbook :O

homed with them x)

isn't that a great day?
somemore there's absolute boyfriend tonight xD
and harry potter tmr!

P.S. i wanna watch harry potter and half blood prince and go bugis with HUIXIANGGGG :D
and haunting in connecticut with (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE though u have the pirated dvd already!)
-YaNtiNg says thanks for the day, the emotional day with happy memories

2009-07-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

Inside I hope you know I'm dying

With my heart beside me

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced

And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as, you are right now to me

And I will always remember you now, remember you now

3 cheers for 5 years - Mayday Parade

And this empty space left in the seat

To my right where you should be says a lot

Don't let it say goodbye

Just say you're not into it - Mayday Parade

Because these words were never easier for me to say

Or her to second guess

But I guess

That I can live without you but

Without you I'll be miserable at best

Miserable at best - Mayday Parade

And I got the point that I should leave you alone

But we both know that I'm not that strong

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO ORAL'S OVERRRRR :D

like finally.

i was totally freaking out before it x.x
thanks courteney for trying to comfort me x)

and everyone who encouraged me!
(that includes ppl that doesn't even know me like courteney's juniors and JASMINE!)

PE was sucky ):
did the beep test
and for once i feel lik running
but darn, my shoe sole got hole D:

so regretted not changing into my bball shoes although i brought them.
SO DUMB.

ohkays.
i've officially saved $12.20 over this 3 days by skipping lunch and recess(:
MUAHAHAHAHA xD

eyes pain x.x

i should really try to sleep early from now on :/
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-08T20:55:00.002+08:00

For a sweet young girl to turn into a cruel cold-blooded demon,

all it takes is a friend to lose faith in her.

And this loneliness is scaring the hell out of me.

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-08T20:46:00.002+08:00

By Carey LFH

that was my portrait

carey tried cheering me up with that x)

and we were quarelling about my chin cuz she draw until very big ):

hah, so i get to redraw it!

chionged finish 8 level descriptors and compo yesterday!

feel so accomplished and productive xDD

but today none was collected D:

day was okay

quiet without qitot D:

WHERE YOUUUUU?

was in great great pain the whole day):

physically.

MOLES - very irritating chem.

darn it.

mr tranformer vehhhh funny :D

"in order to understand tranformers, you need to be at a certain level of intelligence"

"THE WORLD IS DYING!! THE TRANFORMERS.."

and he danced today O.O

stayed back and watched vic and jingwen they all dance.

jasmine and calvin dance super well(:

it's funny to watch them dance.

you'll start feeling dumb x.x

homed with courteney(:

THANKS XINYU for the dried beef and choc :D

got oral tmr D:

scaryyyyy.

and poof, my distinction in english book is gone!

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-06T22:54:00.006+08:00

If one day you discover,

that you actually meant that little to the one who meant the most,
what would you do?

"COME BACK TO ME! come back to me."
but i really don't wanna let you go.
-YaNtiNg thinks she need a talk with her.

2009-07-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

because the sky is too dark.

so dark that i couldn't see what's in front of me.

"move on."

my mind says.

although you left me here,

i'm waiting for you to come back.

~~i thought you would.~~

i hope you would.

-YaNtiNg

2009-07-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

sick of everything,

of waiting,

of hoping,

of wishing and believing.

you were the one who told me to believe.

yet abandoned me for the one who once abandoned me.

just replaced me.

i didn't know that i was so replaceable.

but don't worry,

you will never be.

WORN - OUT.

-YaNtiNg

i remind myself, from time to time

that you can never be.

i see you everywhere.

i get reminded of you everywhere.

see?

heaven doesn't want me to forget you.

2009-07-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

jin tian xin qing bu shi hen hao
ni yi ge xing qi dou zai duo zhe wo
wan shang shi you chuan jian xun, guan xin wo
zhe shi she me yi shi?
you duo you guan xin
wo zhen de bei ni gao hu tu le
bu zhi dao ni dao di xiang yao she me
ni shuo ni hai pa
ke shi ni lian di yi bu dou hai mei ta chu
ni ze me zhi dao hui shi bai ne?
wo yi zhi qi dai ni hui xiang qian lai
dan deng dao de zhi shi ni de hui be he bu yuan yi
wo dao di zuo cuo le she me, gao su wo ke yi ma?
wo gai, yi ding gai.
ying wei zhi xiang yao ni hui dao wo sheng bian.

ru guo ni zhen de guan xin,
ni hui bu yan qi fan de jie du.
zhe ye she wei yi de fang shi le.

hai zai qi pan.
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-03T20:24:00.004+08:00

it's finally friday(:

the week's been made so hard for me
have to adapt to all the harsh conditions
have to realise and tell myself that what was there wasn't there already
i hope it'll be back soon, just mia-ing.
but super glad that i got 2 rubbish bins that i can throw everything to
my leech and my lao neh pok! (:

thanks guys, lots.

went for a picnic with seri and qitot at some place in punggol!
we walked all the way into the forested area and ate beside the river
saw angmohs skateboarding on the river(:

i got scratched by the scratchy plants D:

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
漫长的等候让人特别失落
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

say it out loud ,make me strong
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

刘力扬 - 寂寞光年
是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了
又空精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手
出走带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

ohkays, i love doing chem experiments x)

had a trainee teacher for ss
and he chatted with us for the whole period so i slept through lik half of it x)

vic is a "lovable fool". HAHA xD
Qitot is a psycho!

parents are back
and they bought alot of snacks xP
woohoo~~

GOT CUTTLEFISH.

the only thing u need to do well for geog is to understand mdm neo's phrase
BRAS NEED PROPER PANTIES.

no more air con room tonight):
-YaNtiNg

2009-07-01T21:32:00.002+08:00

again, i can't upload my photos!

Come Back To Me - David Cook
You say you got to go and find yourself
You say that you've become someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm there whenever you need me,
I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

Take your time I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

And I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

mdm neo is sooooo humorous today!
o = omar n = mdm neo

o : mdm neo can i go toilet?

n : cannot!

o : why??

n : cuz i say so!

o : walao u very sexist sia!

n : i not sexist, i'm sexy!

HAHAHA, WALAO.
the whole class laugh lik siao!

anyway,
keep seeing primary school frens today!
ytd saw joshua, and he totally dao me twice >:(
den today saw ak, justin den NICHOLAS :D

nic still veh niceeee(:

he went on a date with his mum
ROFL.

never eat rice today):

but had sobaaaaa(:
thanks qitot for pei-ing me to daisooooo
and making u spend money x)

daiso is cool, love it.

and yes, pastamania with qitot someday(:
(didn't know pastamania had student meal. 30% discount from 2-5 )

and no qitot, i SOOO did not say banditto zinger meal.

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
-YaNtiNg

Waiting.

2009-06-30T21:52:00.001+08:00

give it a try, and you will.
i'm not giving up, just waiting.
-YaNtiNG

2009-06-30T21:14:00.004+08:00

i tink swine flu got into my com
i can't upload photos):

it's so tiring today
running 6rounds inside school
felt so uber lazy so ran4 walked 2

history was nice
watching hitler talk about ERP and MJ's death O.O

LOL.

had lunch with courteney and shiuan wen at LJS
den they homed and i walked around NTUC

was planning to make pizza but was abit lazy

den saw the soba/somen and the sauce
kinda expensive but omg, tempted pls.

ARGHHHHH.
damn sianned this few days.

i wanna learn to make a bento(:

anyway,
me and my sis took a photo of us having dinner and sent it to my parents in malaysia
they were damn worried that we'll eat junk food instead of going down and buy food

thanks qitot for listening me grumble nag rant
thanks courteney for listening too

and CAREY, omg.
thanks mucho, for that portrait that u tried cheering me up with x)

I LOVE IT SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

shall upload it someday(:

i should start feeling motivated to do geog.
-YaNtiNg
u didn't look for me, i wanna believe that u just accidentally forget about it.
it's hard, but i'm trying.
i got so much to say, but u look away out of the window.
and the hopes vanished the sunlight.

2009-06-29T20:26:00.003+08:00

i could cry a million times and still feel sad.
that's how sad i am.

wo dao qian shi ying wei wo zhi dao ni guang xin
i liao jie le ni de gan shou
dan ni ne?
ni liao jie ma?
wo mei he ni shuo, ni wen ye bu wen.
zhi shi yi xiang zi jiu ding le wo de zui
rang wo tong bu yu sheng
zuo le na me duo rang wo shi wang de shi
ni hai zhi mi bu wu
wo shi zhe fang song, dan mei fang shou.
ke yi fang qi le.
cong qian yi bu zai, qian mian yi pian hei an.

i tried to not hold on too tight, and never let go.
but you, gave up.
what's supposed to be there wasn't there anymore,
what's left is just plain darkness.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-28T20:35:00.005+08:00

[edited]

i like him!

school starts tmr.
and i'm certainly not looking forward to it.
i got geog,physics and english undone.
great.
arghh.
i'm so tired,
need to sleep early for tmr.
ciao
-YaNtiNg
[/edited]

2009-06-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

finished emaths in 3 hours time!
HUAT ARHHHHH.

gonna do physics, den ask my sis chem
still got englishhhhh):

HATE ENGLISH D:

AND OMG GEOG 14 QUESTIONS.
that's lik 6-7 exam papers.
u dun even do THAT much in a year!

argh.
got this fagging headache and runny nose.
if i'm getting a fever, PLEASE, on monday!

i realise all the stuff i bake i dun eat them o.o

but i wanna bake muffins!
pretty muffins(:

arghhhhh, can't sleep at night!
how sia? school's starting.
imagine sleeping at 2+ and waking at 5.50am?
zzzzz.

losing my mind..
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

You Are Not Alone by MJ

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'loneWhy, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

if i need 5 days to apologise, i guess you'll take longer to forgive and forget.

i've taken my first step, i'm willing to wait.

the rest is up to you, really.

tell me what to do, to make u take just one step.

i promise i'll take it from there on.

i'm sorry.

-YaNtiNg

2009-06-26T20:37:00.003+08:00

okay, i'm sunburnt today.

went swimming with cousins
they woke me up at 9.30 and said they'd arrived. HELLO????

den went to lib and studied
thanks alex for teaching amaths~~ *waves*

mrt-ed home with ahjunnnnnnnn(:
xiao de hen wu nai, xiao de hen xin han. wo gai zhe me ban?
didn't buy my subway cuz it's not worth.

absolute bf tonight!
but i'm darnnnn tired):

and omgggg, the hmwkkkkk!
(covers eyes)
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

"i'll always be here when u need me okay?(: "
something that u've always always said.
i always thought u needed me.but come to think of it,u're only there when there's no one with u.
is that what it means to you?
me being the floating log on the sea
something that you can jus throw away aftere you've found land.
i guess it's jus me.
sorry for not being ur best fren when i thought i was.

so it's jus me against the world,huh?
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-24T15:52:00.002+08:00

swollen ankle.
rheumatism - thats wad my mum says.

和你並肩同行
一起走過各種天氣
再冷我都不覺得委屈
但生命轉了彎
慌亂間我回頭看
卻失去你的蹤跡
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

泪流满腮
udidn'tdoanythingiwishedthatuwouldudidn'tsayanythingihopedthatuwould
ujusfuckinglyleftmealoneandwentoffhappily
isthatwadi'llbetherewhenuneedmemeans
ujusduncareujusdunsee
couldn't sleep last night
which resulted in swollen eyes surrounded by dark eye circles in the ~~morning~~ noon

laugh all u wan, patricia.

so i ended up sleeping the whole noon.

i look at this post for 10mins and dunno wad to say
or
how to write wad i wanna say

i mean, look at others
those better in english
they can express themselves very well in their blogs
look at me
rants in singlish
wad is this.

nvm, i'm jus getting frustrated for nothing.

i got frustrated for not being able to eat cuttlefish today.

why in the world must heaven let me get wad i wanted and give me the impression that my life is almost perfect den take everything alway one by one?
it's the same for everything.
dammit.

i scolded my mum for reminding me to do hmwk.
i cursed the stationery shop for only selling 2 kinds of m. pencils.

i tink i'm getting a little too depressed.
and the breakdowns at night.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

wo pa le you qing,
pa le you qing dai lai de yi qie shang hai.

让你与我无关.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-21T21:48:00.003+08:00

childhood(:

been having this stomachache for 3days
so many damn trips to the toilet a day x.x
(i'm afraid of drinking cold water now, even plain water)

did some work
and went out with my aunt

looking forward to tmr's movie trip with team
but am afraid of my stomachache acting up ):

可惜你不在 Ke Xi Ni Bu Zai - Dai Ai Ling 戴爱玲

这一次我要把长发弄乱
反正天再冷
躲不进你的胸怀
推开了你的手
泪流满腮
不怕你嘲弄不怕你冷漠
此刻只想要耍赖

这一夜最好先说出good bye
戏拖得太久
傻女生也会学乖
喝不下这杯酒
苦涩来得好快
让你去作梦
让你去摸索
让你与我无关

我爱我盼只可惜你不在
我爱上的从来只是幻影
从不存在
我爱我盼只可惜你不在
说好彼此要真心对待
说过的话变成了负债
不能向你讨的爱我怎能锁在心上

说好彼此要真心对待
已经证明撞上了冰山
不能为你留的爱我最好忘得痛快

"我爱,我盼,只可惜你不在.
我爱上的从来只是幻影,
从不存在."
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-19T22:32:00.001+08:00

jus feeling abit weird.
kinda wrong here, kinda wrong there.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

peanut butter cookies(:

not bad.

though the first few batch was burnt D:

anyway, absolute boyfriend tonight(:

whee x)

-YaNtiNg

you went on and on, ever thought how miserable it made me feel?

2009-06-18T20:32:00.003+08:00

(points at web counter)

HAHA.

anyway, i bought all my powder(s) today

plain flour, corn flour, baking powder

ready for peanut butter cookies! x)

and i tink the uncle cheat my money >:(

the scale of the measuring cup is wrong luh.

there's 2 scale for grams

but the 600g mark for one scale is between the 700g and 800g mark on the next scale o.o

cut my hair finally.

it's getting so thick and long.

homework):

still undone.

absolute boyfriend playing on tmr!

i'm stopping myself from watching it on the net first >:(

baking=wasting money
but i love it x)

P.S. in love with kim hyun joong!
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

day was boring.

at least i did some work! (:

fuck my printer, waste my ink >:(

next target : peanut butter cookies!

-YaNtiNg

2009-06-16T21:00:00.001+08:00

yue can yue xin tong.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-16T20:19:00.002+08:00

mum says:
"ting ah.. u must really get out of the house liao leh! later u get more depressed lik me how?"

me says:
"huh? wun luh.." (slashing motions)

AHAHAHA
so i went out and had subway with my mamma :DD

she say not niceeee):

anyway
tried meatball marinara!
recommended, but eat it veh messy D:

my mum keep saying subway melt too salty!
so i ended up eating an 8 inch bread(:

oh, i like parmesan oregano(:

anyway, i bought a whisk and the cake mould(:
AND BAKED MY VERY FIRST CAKE.

but abit unsuccessful? D:

reasons that might have caused the failed attempt:
1. my mould too big for the toaster = the cake veh close to the infrared stick
2. i used a toaster to bake
3. cookie crumbs are not supposed to be at the top
4. i used my hand to mix instead of the electric mixer
5. the layer of crumbs too thick

argh x.x

nvm, must jiayou(:

next aim will be a perfect banana cake x)

okayyy
so after all the cake excitement
must do some work!

even my mum started nagging):

ding dang dong.
hopes time pass faster till tmr den i can eat my cheesecakkeeeee(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

"i'm like the tower, you,the rainbow. they'll never meet. they'll never touch."

and i guess you don't need me anymore, do you?
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

i got cheated and came online
who's responsible?
the one whose name's in purple in my previous previous post!
ROARS >:(

anyway,
went over to my aunt's house yesterday and today
nothing much yesterday but today was nice!

made "pizza" with the torillo (?) wraps
damn nice
with the tomato pasta sauce and sausages and HONEY MUSTARD :D
den roll roll roll den toast x)
hehe

YUM.

dabao dinner back home
rush rush rush to watch memoirs of the geisha x)

P.S.
my sis ran across the road jus cause we were late :O
i dunno how long never see her run liao

argh.
going to be the third week of the hols
seriously gotto do some work
~~(inserts super determined look)~~

oh, and i dunno why my previous post ended up in one whole lump):

i still wan subway(:
and i wanna make oreo cheesecake(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-13T11:47:00.004+08:00

sorry for all the lifeless pictures!

but i only take pictures when i'm resting

= lazy to move my ass to where everyone is

= taking photos of stuff around me :O

anyway, thanks kunyan for attempting to snap a successful shot of us (:

(laugh at amanda's photo)

went to vivo mart and candy empire!

bought shortbread ( $3.5o buy 1 get 1 free!! super nice!! )

so we reached sentosa at 12pm O.O

found a shady place and started playing!

huimei see fishes EVERYWHERE.

rah,kahyan,huimei,kunyan,joywe kept digging this big hole

den finally found water!

and we caught a CRAB :D

kudos to kunyan!

(the crab damn damn fast!)

all of us kept singing nobody o.o

haha.

saw a bunch of thai guys while resting with joywe

DAMN GAY PLS.

they take photos hugging each other and stuff? x.x

and and, me and sarah lim saved 2 malay gals who is lik drowning?

we were on the bridge so we jus hold them to keep them afloat until the life guard came

damn scary, the malay gal was whispering, "help me.. help me.."

sia luh, she damn strong, she was holding onto another gal that appears to be unconsious?

woohoo, hope they're fine now(:

so bathed and dinnered at food republic

the auntie cheat my money >:(
ma la mian turns out to be handmade noodles with chilli OIL.

wth. den make me choke!

bought some stuff for my mum to eat too(:

homed with kunyan,huimei,shuwen and joywe!

woke up today and only my left shoulder is burnt -.-

wth.

i didn't even turn darker!

arghhh):

and my eyes super dry and red

kept putting eyedrops to moist it.

(sidetrack)

hey it's raining now/rained yesterday night!

luckily never rain during our trip!(:

(sidetrack done)

might be going over to my aunt's house later(:

and and, WOOHOO

ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND jap version showing on fridays 11.30! :D

but, manga nicerrrrr(:

in need to money and someone to get my hmwk done!

(AND SUBWAY)

-YaNtiNg

2009-06-11T22:28:00.002+08:00

i didn't know that sunblock can cost u $20.30
O.O
nvm, i take it as investment for tmr's trip(:

woohoo~~ i wan ~~peeling~~ dark skin(:

dang.
i hope it doesn't rain tmr D:

my mum keep scaring me
"TING ARH IT'S GONNA RAIN!!" (inserts gleeful smile)

-.=

so when she plays quadrapop
i'll shout
"DIE ALREADY ANOT?"
xD

haha..
ok..
ARGH.
got alot on my mind and no one to tell it to D:

but still,
PATRICIA TO THE RESCUE!
thanks babe(:

need to go pray for good weather tmr before i sleep(:
(joking)
-YaNtiNg
because u're the best thing that had ever happened to me
all the more i want to make you happy
but it's not something that i can achieve just by trying harder
and you refused to tell me wad happened
how can i help you? tell me, my fren?

2009-06-11T14:53:00.005+08:00

when u've tried ur best
and all u get was criticisms and insults and misunderstandings,
would you try to do ur best again?

i guess i would.

sorry for all the short updates
seriously rotting at home
not even doing hmwk! D:

so looking forward to friday(:
SUN AT SENTOSA!!

oh, and my mum can hum "when you're gone"
CAN UR MUM DO THAT? xD

and yeah,
jus wanna say thanks to my mum
for trying to accompanying me cause she's afraid that i'm bored
lik asking me if i wan subway, or macs, or go hub
when she's lik fucking afraid of the heat now

i need to get some hmwk done >:(
because i selfishly want you for myself only.
but before that, LUNCH FIRST :D
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

i need the sun and water of sentosa(:
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

just 2 days,
and look at the distance between us now.
i can't even recognise you anymore.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

HAHA

-YaNtiNg

2009-06-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

sakae treats u like a little kid.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-07T19:01:00.004+08:00

filled with thorns,and messed-up colours.
and where were you when i needed you the most?
my life.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-06T16:28:00.003+08:00

what can i do?

how can i knock some sense into u?
stop treating me lik some fucking idiot
treat me lik ur fren
or at least, because i taut i was one.

nan dao cong jian zhi nen shi cong qian ma?

i can endure hardships,
i can endure pain.
but one thing i can never endure is seeing my loved ones suffering.

it's not something i can make better just by trying harder.

i've got so much to say
but there's no one i can say it to.

i've got so much to cry about
but there's no place where i can shed my tears

but at least,
u have them to talk to.

for that, i'm glad.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

camp was okay?
how can it be nice when i'm the labourer 3/4 of the time?

dinner sucked.
i'm so not eating the western food oppo sch again.

apparently there was a decrease in ppl during camp

whacko was great
we got 2 jiaxins and 2 xinyis LOL

night walk too(:
although i fell after running cuz was trying to scare the juniors
hah

stayed up all night
thanks huimei for ur phone!

TAP TAP DOMINATION IS FUN.
hah singping u suck in the game xP

activity hub's lik a heaven in this weather x)

i guess the best time during camp is bathing.

anyways, thanks sarah lim(:
for listening to me
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

today was veh veh busy
out for 12hours straight
study, training, shopping

oral was coooool x)
36/40

trg was tiring
had frenly and won!
nice game peeps^^

and my new knee guard have 2 holes already
zzz -.-

and i lost a patch of skin from my knee for sliding on the floor too much

went taka and bought stuffs(:

okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
miss me till saturday k?
ME GOT CAMP(:
wah first time ownself organise camp ownself go
so got cheng jiu gan x)

I'M TIRED.
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

i bought my knee guard today(:
but can't find the large ankle guard?
sian big times...

hah!
and i found the small elbow guard for ra when she insisted they dun have it x)
SMART ME.

anyway, had pepper lunch with ra(:

walked her to sch and homed!
BOYS OVER FLOWERS IS NICE :D

i lik ji hoo better after his haircut and when he goes out with jandi!
he smiles alot and look a tweeny little bit lik show luo x)
and jae kyung is damn cool, totally cong bai her till wu ti tou di pls.

ahaha
jandi and junpyo went to entertainment 100% to promote?
LOL show luo and xiao gui did lots of stuff to win their bet
so in the end xiao gui have to call show luo "daddy" for a month?
HAHAHA xD

extra lessons start tmr?
ARGH X.X
sian diao pls.
2 hours of maths and chinese oral tmr >:(
and i haven do my maths ws?

TO PATRICIA:
i noe u love me alot ALOT xP
but pls uh, i want my yearbook back ok?
hehe

subway breakfast and hotcakesss!
-YaNtiNg

2009-06-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

knee and ankles were hurting
but nevertheless, i enjoyed trg(:
as i promised, i never let that person affect my mood(:

it's pretty warm
but the sun tanning was great(:
but urgh, back aches ):

i wan subway breakfast(:

someday i'll manage to survive alone.
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-31T15:21:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry for all the short short emo posts
but wad can i do man?
life's not that great

and i'm not good in english
i find no ways to express myself well
there isn't even someone that i can really talk to
the one i could cry to is... uh forget it.

it's frustrating.
problems with ur frens are worse den problems with ur love
and worse, it's best fren.

after losing ur love
well i can keep thinking,
"love's happy, i happy. i chose to give love up so love can find happiness."
but after experiencing the pain of losing love
u'll realise that it's even more painful for u to lose ur best fren
even before u lost them

just the fear of losing ur best fren
can make u lose control of urself and turn ur life upside down
can make u do things u've never done before
can make u break down 3 times a day

it's dumb

i wonder wads more saddening
1. being sad because u know that ur best fren is worried but not for u
2. being sad because ur best fren is sad

that depends
but both hurts, equally much, to me.

everything that ur best fren said is how u feel
everything ur best fren couldn't do is wad u couldn't do

and sometimes u jus wonder if u're her best fren after all

was she ever sad because u're sad
was she ever worried when u're not talking
or jus plainly, why don't she tell u anything when u're her best fren?
or at least, u tink that u are.

maybe from the start till now,
u're the one needing ur "best fren"
but she doesn't need you
she got other ppl that she can talk to

simply put, she dun trust u as much as them

so u're not her best fren.

and u can get fucking jealous when u look at her with her frens
even though she invited u out with them
"argh i feel so fucking extra"
and u even considered the plan of asking someone to call u and ask u to get back to school
so u can get ur big fat ass out of the damn hell place
so u bloodily tried to not talk to her
or well, responding with short replies only when she talk to you.

it's jus the fear of losing ur best fren that's making u feel lik this
being paranoid and stuff
but hell yeah, one thing's that confirmed.

she doesn't trust me enough to confide in me
so she's my best fren when i'm not hers.

tadaa
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-30T12:41:00.001+08:00

i'm always here, and will be here.
for you. even when i'm not wanted anymore.
-YaNting

2009-05-30T11:07:00.002+08:00

just when u thought things were getting better,
the situation decided to take a drastic turn for the worse.
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-29T20:06:00.006+08:00

congrats to 3/3'09 for winning!!!

and oso, HIDHIR!!

for being the president!!!

-YaNtiNg

i'm alone, crying for you.

2009-05-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

i feel kind of not here nor there
not happy, not sad, just hollow

i wan to sleep all the time
staring out of windows, stoning, sleeping
it's just weird

heh
i'm tink i'm getting used to being alone?
or at least, feeling alone.

i hope i can jus die.

"they say there's a soulmate for everyone. so where's mine?"
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-27T21:01:00.002+08:00

day was baddddd):
but i've made up my mind not to let that someone affect my mood
thanks to ednaaaa(:

anyway,
VOTE FOR HIDHIR.
because barney's voting for him
because the yellow rubber duck says QUACK
because subway cookie is nice.

haha x)

alpha beta is fun(:

ss was free lesson so slept for dunno how long x)
"eh yanting i jus drooled while sleeping."
guess who man.

went to avt for history and enjoyed the aircon cuz i got mear full marks for SBQ
den larry randomly asked are u hungry to everyone o.o

smuggled ice cream from lib to class with vic x)
spent only 3 min doing that LOL
thanks vic for cheering me up by threatening to pull my hair -.-

physics was boring.

except when carey hid my ruler in her thick thick file
cuz she taut i was cutting myself with it o.o
but i still found it AHAHAHA xD

and when carey asked me to write "HID" on her hand
and i wrote HIV instead ><

chem chem chem <3
BLUE BLUE CRYSTALSSSS(:
it's super pweety.

and thanks ivan for helping me dry my crystalssss.

got back report slip
kinda disappointed :/
2 A, 2B all C
hmmm
shall do better next time(:

trg den homed.

and weirdly, i sprained my right ankle and the left one's hurting o.o

anyway, geog ws was surprising easy(:

i want pancakes with lotsa honeyyyyy to cheer me up.
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-26T19:56:00.002+08:00

watched mulan2 for eng.
went through paper for math.
did speed for physics.
had sausage mcmuffin for recess.
did salt preparation for chem.
did stupid chengyu for chinese
went through sports carnival stuff for efl.
had lunch in school.
went to hub and bought my smiley shirt.
came back home and watched rah cut hair.
slept and ate and watching show.

why can't u understand my efforts?
i just need you to be happy.
cuz u meant more.
even more den her.

nibushimeiyouyong.yingweizaiwoxingzhongnishizhuihaode.

nibiezaishangxinle,wohuinanguode.

nishuonibangbuliaota,suoyinanguo.

erwo,shiyingweiwufarangnikaixinsuoyifannao.

wowufaziba,yingweinishiwozuiyaohaodepengyou.

please,be happy.

-YaNtiNg

2009-05-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

for the first time in my life
i ALMOST FAILED CHINESE.

history was good(:
eng kinda suck

alpha and bata is FUNNNNNN :DDD
maths(:

trg was ok.
had the boys coach to teach us and to me
wad he taught is utterly useless.
tsk.

i'm tired, frustated, angry and at a loss of wad to do.

chocolates, someone?
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-24T23:24:00.001+08:00

to that bastard who did nothing at all
yet claimed credit when i was the one who did everything
and still dare tell me,

i salute you
for being so thick skinned.

kudos.

BURN IN HELL
-YaNtiNg

2009-05-24T13:09:00.003+08:00

pretty pretty 3/3 class photo!

BBQ was da bomb!!! :D

went out to meet with aqilah, jaini and hadirah

had lunch at macs

aqilah and hadirah had apple dippers that had reached it's expiry date :O

kenna cheated x.x

jalan jalan and aqilah bought pacifiers!!!

haha

169-ed to bishan park and played around on the bridge

camwhored! xDD

saw mr eu running!!! ;D

hidhir "collected" us at the gate and met with vic

helped around and started the bbq

janelle threw a lump of frozen chicken wings onto the grill and shouted

"DUN WORRY THE ICE WILL MELT AND IT'LL COOK!!"

haha x)

in the end one side is brown and it's still stuck tgt-.-

almost everything we cook is chaoda sia x.x

CANCER.

played around in the function room.

short-lived truth or dare, ghost story telling when none was told-.-

sang with mics that's not working at all!

around the end the volleyball dropped into the pool ><

poor hidhir had to jump in and fish it out

and he forgot to take out his phone

still,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIDHIR!!

thanks for the bbq and everything.

it's been hard on you(:

boysoverflower(:

-YaNtiNg

ihatepplwhodidn'tdoanythingbutgotthecredit.

2009-05-23T11:41:00.001+08:00

i tried to hold on but it hurts too much.
i tried to forgive but it's not enough,
to make it all okay...
-YaNtiNg

wakeup,chongyanting.
shedon'tgiveadamnaboutyou